breathe... just believe

I just have to let this all out now.  This was pending two years ago, and it's creeping up on me every year, the same quarter of each year to be exact.

Now, thinking of it, is this really for me?  They say that when things are meant for you it would be pretty easy to get it.  But, then others would say, there are no easy things, you have to work hard for everything.

I was setting myself to something else.  This was the one thing on my mind when this year started.  Actually, my mind set is still on it.  You know that certain feeling that when you just imagine it you know that it's for you.  That is what I feel for my other plan.  But, for this one, the one that's haunting me... It's just full of doubt.

I think I should go for what my heart desires. Right?  The other one may be more stable and over the top, but what I want I think this is something that will make me happy and stable at the same time.

I am going to pray for this... hard.

Lord, let it this be the one. 

Let me soar.